Hey everyone! It’s been a while since I last posted here. And by a while, I actually mean ages. My last entry was in September. Nine months ago. And It wasn’t even an actual blog post. I can’t believe it’s been that long already.
But I’m back now and after some revamping, Kooky’s Save Point (as this blog was previously known) has now become PanickedPixel. We now have a new domain name, a brand new logo, a more personal About page, and the revelation of my real name (some of you may remember that I went under the name “Kooky” when I first started). This, however, is only just the beginning.
Still, I feel like I owe you guys a bit of an explanation for my long absence. Here it goes.
I’m kidding, of course.
But in all seriousness: in August last year, I went through a bit of a rough patch in my life and in the wake of that, realized that I had actually been experiencing a form of depression for years. I woke up to the reality that I had a number of self-esteem issues that I needed to address. I knew that I had to deal with these issues as soon as possible if I wanted to reach my full potential. So I decided to focus my efforts on getting to a better place, one where I would be more comfortable in my own skin.
I was encouraged by a dear friend to seek therapy.
And honestly, it’s been one of the best things that’s ever happened to me. Over the past several months, with the help of my therapist and a few close friends, I’ve gotten to know myself a lot better. I spent a lot of time figuring out how to feel less ashamed of myself and how to accept negative situations as an inevitability in life, as well as a necessity to grow as a human being. In conjunction with this, I reflected on my abilities, preferences and goals.
Now, I have a clearer picture of who I am and who I want to become. I’ve found my own voice and I’m much more able to assert my own identity. I wouldn’t go so far as to say that I am a completely new person. It’s more of me being in better touch with my real self, no longer feeling the need to live up to other people’s expectations.
But I guess thinking about all these things is just something that comes with adolescence, huh? It’s been tough and I know that I’m still a work-in-progress, but I feel like I’ve gotten pretty far and I’m genuinely proud of where I am today.
Since this blog is starting afresh though, I’d like to properly introduce myself to you. This time, sans the insecurity and the fear that I had when I initially started.
Hello! My name is Kristeen. I’m 21 years old, a Filipino born and raised in Hong Kong. I enjoy the world of digital media and would like to work in that industry in the future. 🙂
I hope this blog will help me learn even more about myself and in the process, I hope you can learn something from me too.
I’m very pleased to finally meet you. ❤